Hi Claire, 

I have spent my last weekend before your last goodbye pretending you are still here, still doesnt feel real. I still expect to hear your laugh, i still look forward to seeing you and hearing your stories and i still look forward to hear how positive you were in life. I loved our chats and putting the world to right, our disaronno nights and sharing xmas quizes every year. I found photos of all of the best moments we spent together… the fun xmas party hats are the best!!! You were a beautiful soul and had the most infectious outlook on life. You shared so many stories and were the proudest mam to Lucy. You told me she was your greatest achievement in life. I wish it wasnt like this. There is still so much i would like to share with you. One thing i can promise is to celebrate as much as possible and keep you in my heart. You have shown me to live life to the fullest and document every memory no matter how big or small! We had a chat in April about doing things that make us happy and never to look back or regret… i regret not squeezing you harder as i pleaded you to stay out and party. I wish we had more time. No one will celebrate xmas bigger or better than you! I will really miss you claire… x